Friday, February 01, 2008

Should I or Should I Not???

I am so fucking confuse about this coming Chinese New Year. Should I meet my whole entire Families (Aunts, Uncle, Cousins and nephews)?

What is on my mind are; are they going to judge me when I’m there? Will they respect me? Will I have fun? Because so far when I’m around they suck! I don’t think they have any respect. I do understand the differences that we have. I don’t think I have that Asian perspective in thinking as all of them have. So I just can’t stand them sometimes.

I just want to live my life and be free. I really do appreciate if they care for me. But if I need help I will come to you, don't even try to help without my permission. Now I still want to just spread my wing and soar. Let me build my own future. I’m 22 years old so I can think for myself and can make decision for my future. *i will learn from my mistake*

Make sure that you guys don’t talk about my mom and my sis because you have to know who you’re dealing with later on. I’ll totally fuck you guys up as well as your families. The choice is yours.

I just want you to respect me at the same time as I respect you!


xoxo Agus